Easter / Kel

 Happy Easter Papa we love you !!!!!!!!!!!

We played wii bowling :) your favorite game mom's pretty good just like you papa !!!!!!!!!

35 years ago she was born on Easter thats cool :)

We miss you alot love all of us :)

 

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Happy Easter Honeyewhr  / Barb (Wife)

My beloved,

Today is Easter, so Happy Easter honey.  Christ has risen!!

I went to Church and the Lily I got in your memory was on the Altar.

Right now I'm at Carol's.  God's booklet is done and I dedicaated it t

to you and the Lord.  I love you so much honey and I miss you so

badly.   I know you are with our Risen Lord and that He is

watching over me and so are you. I love you honey and always

will.

Love always and forever, Barb

 

 

 

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baby william  / Kelly (daughter)
Dad baby William did not make it. Hes now in heaven give him butterfly kisses for me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Close

all is good  / Kelly (daughter)
surgery went well :)  I am good recovering at home. Hard to keep me down (I am my dads daughter) lol. I know you would be after me to rest. Scot and the boys try hard to help me. They have been great but again I am my dads daughter haahaaaa....   The hospital was a nightmare hahha whatelse would happen to me :)  we always say if its going to happen it will happen to Kelly :)
Glad its over and I am home I know if you they were they would have treated me better..... I'm still trying to learn the whole take no shit thing hahha thats a hard one... You would have liked the doctor though he was great and set them all straight.. And hes funny made Scot laugh...

Its late I sit here by myself I think of you all of the time went through more pictures. I cant wait to get the memory bears done.. They are adorable...

I hear your funny sayings all the time makes me laugh....
good boogily woogily :) and what color green you do like anyhow ?? You always cracked me up.... Zach does it all the time .... Its so funny

I get to play poker a bit more since I confined for a few weeks. I am not so good lol but its fun... I play for nascar prizes and its free. Good for me hahhaaaa
I haven't won anything yet but came close a few times
 Your house is looking good you and Justin did a fantastic job Justin does great work and keeps its looking good :) I know your proud of both the boys...

Spike might have a tumor hes going to the vets :( hope he will ok hes my lil bean:) They said if you get it early its usually good..

Thats it for now.. I am exhausted haven't sleep well since Tuesday...
Kel



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love you  / Kelly (daughter)

Tomorrow is my surgery bright and early  :) I know you'll be there with me in my heart !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 We went through pictures this week all the pics of the kids and you when they were small makes me laugh...  Justin always has a serious face and Zach is always got a grin haahahaaa

the hat picture is still my favorite and the ones with you and storm watching football. Priceless couldn't get my scanner to work Justin needs to look at it so I can upload more pics :)

Love u lots and miss you,

Kel

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watching over me  / Kelly (daughter)

my surgery is next week ! Its hard not having the support but I know you will watching over me :)   I'm scared and excited all at the same time :) First surgery you wont be there but your in my heart.

 Mom is more worried than I am.. Its going to be fine . Cant believe Justin will be driving next month. He was telling us you guys were discussing him driving down the road past your house. He said thats the first thing he's going to do ! He's signing up for spring track he did so well...Zach got his high school classes all picked for next year.

He picked DDP and guitar....Both of them are going for technology not too bad..

we are all doing well all your babies :) we miss you everyday !!!!!!!!

all our love

 

 

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missing u  / Kelly

missing you this Valentine's day !!!!!!!!!!!!!   I got all my bears and o how I love them there all by my bed :) watching over me :)

I miss you so very much.....

all my love ,

Kel

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Dearest Beloved  / Barb (Wife)
Hi Sweetheart, I just wanted to write a few words to you. I love you so much and I miss you so badly. Scot, Kelly and the boys have been fantastic to me and I love them and appreicate what they do for me. Scot and I took Storm to the Vets for her checkup. She is in perfect health, but the Dr. had to shave more hair away from her cyst. Back to Proxide and neosporin. It looks better today. (We went Monday and today is Wed.). The medicene he gave her made me feel so bad for her. Scot had to lift her in and out of the van and had to almost carry her in, but she made it. He took 1 seat out of the van so she won't scrape or reopen the wound. When it heals completely, will put the seat back in. Zach helped me with the vaccum cleaner as I had to take it to get the bumper repaired, and the light fixed and a wheel replaced. Zach did a great job and I'm proud of him. Also, I am proud of what Justin does around here. He fixed the lights on the garage and did an outstanding job. I am so proud of him too. I love them so much. Oh, honey, I do so wish you were here. It is agony without you, but the Lord is with me and I am grateful and so thankful he is. Well I hate to end this, but I must for now. I'll write soon my darling. Love, Barb Close

Making things right and forgiveness  / Barb (Wife)
Hi honey, This is the third try to get this to go through. Please let it go through this time because it comes from my heart and soul. I hurt Kelly and am so sorry. I never ever want to hurt her. She is like my own daughter and I love her very much. She is special to me and I would never knowingly hurt her. I am going to help her in anyway I can and let her know she can come to me for support and whatever she wants. I feel the same way about Scot and the boys. We are family and I want us all to stay close. Especially Kelly ane me. Please forgive me honey and God, please forgive me. I am so glad I have the Lord to lean on and that He is carrying me. I love Him and need Him so much. I love you honey and still hurt and miss you so very much. I'll write you a note soon my darling. Love always and forever, Barbs Close

Christmas and New Years  / Barb (Wife)
Hi beloved,

Well its New Years now and I am still hurting badly. Spent Christmas with Kelly and family. It was lonely,and depressing but some of it was fun. Spent New Year Eve alone .sad called kids got no response. Went to have coffee with Anna and lunch with Elaine. Spent time with Storm.

Vol. today and took Storm for a ride. Justin is helping me get this to go through. I miss you so badly and it hurts so much, but I know God is with me by my side.

I am so happy the holidays are finally over.

I love you so much honey,

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happy new year  / Kelly
Justin won his first meet at the U of R this last friday!!!!!!!!!
Zach starts guitar lessons next week.
We rung in the New year last night.
School is going well  !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
nothing much else.

   
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happy new year  / Kelly
Happy new year its 08 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 May we all have a happier and healthier New Year !!!!
ok we can add wealthier to that .
Wealth of love and support.
May the war in Iraq end soon.
May dale jr win his first Championship in 08 (lol) GO 88
My family come closer together 
May friends continue to inspire us.
May the raiders play better ball next year what happend to them dad ?
May our richess be of love, support, and kindness and may we share it with others !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

we love you dad miss you always :)
Happy New Year



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merry christmas dad !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  / Kelly
Merry christmas to you dad !!!!!!!!!! I will miss your yearly call.. When you coming ???? The memories will live on... Christmas eve was fun ! Jay called he got his gifts from all us in time that made me happy. Lucky he got them all yesterday :) christmas eve there in Afhganistan. 
We cant see you or celebrate with you so were going to do what we know how remember you......... celebrate your life and our time with you. Our gift to you is butterfly kisses wishing you a merry christmas and wishing  Jesus a happy birthday...................
Celebrate as I know you will we will keep you wrapped in our hearts this holiday season :)
I love you so very much ......... for I am daddy's little girl always and forver.... I know how  much you loved us and how very proud you are of us thats what keeps us going !!!!!!!!!!
The boys miss you so much ........ I can see it on there face or hear it in there many stories about poppa :) They cherish every minute they got to spend with you! I see you in both of them its amazing!!!!! My one christmas wish would be for Scott to come around and be with his family... I dont think it will happen but I hope he knows we have and always will love him no matter what !!
 going back to the old days of us being the 3 team lol 
awh dad I love you............  *butterfly kisses*
Merry Christmas  to the greatest dad and popp !!!!!!!!!!!!
I will miss your call but I know your excited as always no matter where you are luv yah Close

christmas / Kelly
 Christmas time is not the same without you dad !!
I miss having my shopping bud :) Your christmas songs and jingles! I will miss your yearly christmas morning call morning when yah coming ??? :) You were always so excited for the boys to come! You were definately one of the coolest papa's in the world!!!
The boys love and miss you so much dad. There getting so big on me :( They talk about you all the time tell stories and laugh...
 They know your proud of them :)
I didn't do alot of stuff this year..... Its been way to hard.....
I know you would want me to be happy and be the same ...
have fun with kids but even they said its just not the same not going to papa's for christmas day :(
Everyone says make new memories......... I am sure we will but we will always keep our memories of you in our hearts..........
 I was just thinking the other day mom asked me if we were going for our annual New years bowling ? I had not really thought about it ? Just does not seem the same without you whether you were @ the pool table or bowling lol :) we would still miss you!!!!!!!
were going to pass this year maybe next year.......Not the same with out Jason either and who knows what the heck my other brother is doing ? Nothing new there. 
It's late I am the last one up as usual....... Were coming to visit before christmas so I wont say Merry christmas just yet so good night and
*butterfly* kisses for now !!!!!!




  

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remembering / Kelly (daughter)
You are missed very greatly. We went to light a remembrance candle on tuesday. Its a candle tree Barb ,the boys and myself.
        This year is difficult I try to have the christmas spirit ...
Justin had his neuro appointment it was 3 hours on our anniversary not so fun but you do what you have too. Justin and myself wish we had you on our team  ...... We laughed..
We didn't get anywhere but I guess I didn't think we would .
I'm doing some research to see if there is another option for him.
I am my fathers daughter I dont give up easy.
Zach made the honor roll we are so proud of him.
Justins been to 3 meets for track  he has done well. He finishes in the middle of the pack.
I feel bad I should celebrate your life !!!!!!!!!!!! Yet you left us way too early. I hear horrible sad stories all the time and think why am I so sad! Its hard to live here and have noone around we know. Scott doesn't call or come around none of us.
I got a call a few weeks ago the bus needed to drop zach off in brockport and would not bring him to my work. I was like I dont anyone else. That feeling hurts cause you were always there to help. Things haven't gone quit how you thought they may when you were gone.As much as I hurt I know your in a better place.
I know your watching over us. So you saw my spectical of a drive to work in that snow storm last week :) I know you would be proud of me
sending butterfly kisses and all my love,
Kelly






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Love / Brian (Wife)
Hi honey, The holdiays are here and it is so hard without you with me to share. I did not decorate, nor will I. I did get some shopping done with Anna and Kelly. It was so bad and so hard. I do know the real true meaning of Christmas, The birth of our Lord Jesus. His message to us and that I know that you are with Him now. I do miss you so much it hurts so bad honey, but with God on my side and carrying me, I will get through this. I know you are watching me too. I bought Storm a new bed yesterday and she actually used it last night. I think I told you about it. She is so good. I still volunteer and today I couldn't. Bad snow storm today. Lots of closings. I will stay in where it is warm and safe. I love you beloved and always will. You are all I have ever needed or have ever wanted. I miss you my darling, Love, Your wife, Barb Close

snow / Kelly
I miss you so much ((((((((((dad)))))))))))))
I can't believe its almost christmas. It started to snow I'm scared as ever :) to drive in it hahaha that will probably never change.
 This year just doesn't feel the same without you here. Going through the motions doing my holiday thing
Wish you were here so many things I want to tell you.........
It's hard .... I know you knew it would be .........
Justin's working hard as ever...... he got your driveway plowed Sunday and looks like he'll be going back if this snow keeps up !!!!!!!!!!!!
Zach is doing awesome were so proud of him his grades are good 
and he is doing well were lucky there great kids !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  Justin got his first 4 credits for college Zach will make the honor roll for the first time !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Schools for me is going well and Scot is busy working ...

Things are so hard this year...............
cant figure out what to do ...

missing you..........


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he will raise you up !!!!!!!!!!!!!!  / Kelly
You who dwell in the shelter of the Lord,
Who abide in His shadow for life,
Say to the Lord, "My Refuge,
My Rock in Whom I trust."

Refrain
And He will raise you up on eagle's wings,
Bear you on the breath of dawn,
Make you to shine like the sun,
And hold you in the palm of His Hand.
The snare of the fowler will never capture you,
And famine will bring you no fear;
Under His Wings your refuge,
His faithfulness your shield.


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And He will raise you up on eagle's wings,
Bear you on the breath of dawn,
Make you to shine like the sun,
And hold you in the palm of His Hand.
You need not fear the terror of the night,
Nor the arrow that flies by day,
Though thousands fall about you,
Near you it shall not come.


Refrain
And He will raise you up on eagle's wings,
Bear you on the breath of dawn,
Make you to shine like the sun,
And hold you in the palm of His Hand.
For to His angels He's given a command,
To guard you in all of your ways,
Upon their hands they will bear you up,
Lest you dash your foot against a stone.


Refrain
And He will raise you up on eagle's wings,
Bear you on the breath of dawn,
Make you to shine like the sun,
And hold you in the palm of His Hand.
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footprints in the sand  / Kelly

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there were one set of footprints.

This bothered me because I noticed
that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from
anguish, sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints.

So I said to the Lord,
“You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life
there have only been one set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most, you have not been there for me?”

The Lord replied,
“The times when you have seen only one set of footprints in the sand,
is when I carried you.”

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Happy Marine Corps Brithday  / Barb (Wife)
Hi Honey, Semper Fi - Happy Marine Corps Birthday. I wanted to wish you were here with me on this the special day of the Marine Corps. I am wearing my ring and shirt in honor of you and the Marines. I love you so much my darling and miss you so very badly. God is so good to me and I thank Him each day for His support. I wanted you to know that and that I think and talk to you all the time. So again, Marines, Happy Birthday. I will write to you soon honey. I love you so very much. My heart feels so empty without you with me. Love, your wife, Barb Close